Musings of A Modern Hermit

Namaste, Y'all, One of the biggest lessons that I learned last year was in being stoic, saying no, and sticking to it—guilt- and shame-free. A great deal of my life was spent in situations where I was devalued, and instead of moving on from the truth that was revealed, I would come crawling back like a scorned dog with its tail between its  hind legs. Being raised in a Christian occult environment, I was conditioned to accept suffering as the way, the truth, and the light, so it's a no-brainer as to why I continued this behavioral pattern well into my adulthood, as did so many of us, especially coming from strict religious communities. It makes me angry to think that the biggest source of personal power theft is sourced through religion. Many of us have spent lifetimes holding toxic space for beliefs that work against our greater good for living a fully expressed life. It's more important to champion stunted growth instead of exercising one's free will; it's plain i...

Namaste, Y'all, Sometimes the best thing one can do for themselves is to express gratitude. Take the time to express a list of things, events, and all in between that have taken place in your life. For me, it's making it through the slew of mudslinging, psychic attacks, character assassinations, lying, theft, emotional wounding, veiled threats, and so much more from those who were threatened by my presence, words of truth and healing, authentic living, kindness, and pursuing my life purpose without malice, competition, and shame. And thank you for showing me just how bound you are to the demonic forces that have taken over your being. You really have no idea what you're doing or who you are, let alone who and what is driving your life force. Possession is hell. I know due to my past addictions. I'm grateful for the lessons you taught me about your true self and mine, for they have ushered me into the sweet spot where I reside today. You also showed me why it is imperati...

Hey, Ya'll, And namaste to you and yours. As we slide into the end of 2025, I'm reminded of several key events the year has presented for me to glean some critical life lessons from. Some of these events that took place looked daunting, and sometimes like they had no end in sight; however, my faith did not and continues to unfold in ways and means that are miraculous and proof that a higher power does indeed exist, and for that I am eternally grateful. The biblical story of Job comes to my mind's eye as a reference point. The man was put to the test and yet stayed focused and steadfast in his faith that the divine was in the hidden details, and all he had to do was trust the process. He did this in the direct firing line of his wife, who would always tell him to curse God and die because his plight was so freaking bad. But he never did. He just trusted and prevented himself from becoming a victim of his circumstances. Talk about one tough and centered being.  I want to than...

Namaste, Y'all, Has life taken you on multiple shifts and changes through  uncharted territory lately? Have you been experiencing the subtle degrees of moving your attention to areas that may have been previously blocked or unavailable? Welcome to the dawning of the Age of Aquarius, where up is now going down, and narrow is steadily widening to degrees of infinite possibilities. Yes, folks, life is certainly over as we've grown accustomed to it. Many certainties and securities have been stripped away due to the powers that be, causing us to rethink our survival as a species. Our comforts are no longer available as before, and our outlook on the future is obscured by the ever-lurking present, which is not saying much. I bet you didn't see this coming down the pike. Many of us seers (both ancient and present) certainly did, and it's still jarring and a bit disconcerting. We harped on this for the past 5 years, and so, here we are. Some of you listened, while others chose ...

Can one miss what they never had? Why do we assume that when a blood relative dies, the survivors are going to grieve them? And how do we respond to those who have not experienced having to deal with a narcissistic character? I ask these pertinent questions regarding my father's passing last week and some reactions to it with others. It was eye-opening, to say the least, the ways that people deal with death and the survivors. And in my case (and my immediate family), it really was about survival. My father was a textbook narcissist and sociopath. He existed to create havoc and drama through seduction and not much else. He left a slough of toxic waste for the souls he projected his unhealed wounds and sick and twisted head games he inflicted upon his victims. Likewise, he was a predator, a sex addict, a drug abuser, and a stalker. He patrolled his prey's territory with vigilance like a crazed security guard. The amount of energy, time, and resources to keep up his facades (and t...

Namaste, Y'all, I had an epiphany during my meditation the other day regarding a behavior that I no longer engage in—playing Rescue Roger. For most of my life, I've been addicted to people-pleasing (on steroids). Also, I want to emphasize that I no longer engage in this behavior, which makes that aha moment all the more impactful. Sometimes spirit will sit you down and show you things that you've overlooked that are gifts of achievement, and this is a major one for me. It began in my childhood, where I was forced into an environment where I sought the attention and approval of toxic adults. You were never good enough, white enough, rich enough, or Christlike enough for them, nor were they to each other. It was a cesspool of fear-based, ego-power-hungry souls, riddled in guilt and shame for simply existing. Expressing joy or any ounce of happiness was not well received because you were thought of as fake. Only suffering and celebrating life inside the confines of church and ...

Namaste, Y'all, Today I want to address a topic that a fellow tarot/oracle reader brought up a few weeks ago that's stuck in my consciousness like crazy. It's about meeting people where they are, not where we expect, assume, or wish them to be so we can interact with them on common ground. Personally, for me, this has been a long string of disappointing relationships due to me not exercising discernment and discretion. I show up ready and willing to be my authentic self and have hope that everyone I encounter is doing the same. While there's nothing wrong with hope, there is that glaring thing called reality. Most people are existing behind a facade that houses their fears and permeates a delusional outlook on life. Being open minded is dangerous when risk taking has been shunned in place of complacent discomfort to fit a false sense of security narrative. I existed in these spaces for most of my adulthood. Embracing beliefs around humility and shame prevented me from e...